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Title: Venting Post by: Hb9 on June 18, 2020, 08:57:00 AM I'm sorry, I've been up all night, I wrote this because I don't know how else to get to sleep.
What do I do? I tried to withstand the rage. I tried to be understanding but firm. But I don't know what's firm and what's cold. I tried not to let my feeling get in the way, to reflect and not take things personally. I broke character, I don't even know if it was a character. I did what I knew would stop the screaming and the pain and it only made it worse. She thinks I'm going to kill her. She doesn't know who I am and I don't know who I am and she thinks I'm a person who's going to actually kill her. And I can't tell anyone. I hold the feeling of fear and hatred even tho I know it's not rational. Because I know it's real. I love her and she thinks I'm going to kill her. And I don't know what to do. And I can't tell anyone. |