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Relationship Partner with BPD (Straight and LGBT+) => Romantic Relationship | Detaching and Learning after a Failed Relationship => Topic started by: Atraue72 on October 05, 2020, 09:35:05 PM



Title: Its been a hard road.
Post by: Atraue72 on October 05, 2020, 09:35:05 PM
About five years ago I was laid off from a high paying job. I went to school and graduated, but my marriage of 10 years dissolved two terms from graduation. I lost my wife, I lost my home, and I was struggling to find work.

My best friend said he would help me get into a place, but then admitted to sabotaged my application, felt it was not a good place for me. I did end up landing a job, but it pays way less then I was making and I am not using my degree or any of my previous exp. I have applied to over 800 jobs in the last year with only a few interviews that lead nowhere.

Finishing up the paper work to file for the divorce. My life has literally imploaded. I feel like the world has turned its back on me and I am afraid of losing the handful of friends I have left.

And I find myself asking, do I really deserve everything I am going through? I am in such a painful dark place in my life and I cannot see hope. My heart is broken and I know I need help, but its always been so hard asking for help.


Title: Re: Its been a hard road.
Post by: FindingMe2011 on October 06, 2020, 05:01:21 PM
About five years ago I was laid off from a high paying job. I went to school and graduated, but my marriage of 10 years dissolved two terms from graduation. I lost my wife, I lost my home, and I was struggling to find work.


I have also lost a couple of small empires, through the years. Currently getting things rolling again. Maybe third times a charm? We will see...

My best friend said he would help me get into a place, but then admitted to sabotaged my application, felt it was not a good place for me.

In times of despair, we find out who are true friends are. So maybe your instincts werent serving you well, at this time. he obviously wasnt a friend, so lesson learned, no?

Finishing up the paper work to file for the divorce. My life has literally imploded.

No actually this is figuratively... It just feels literally for now. This will get better in time. Filing must cause some anxiety. Do you have children involved ?

I feel like the world has turned its back on me and I am afraid of losing the handful of friends I have left.

Bad thoughts breed more bad thoughts. It can be a cruel world at times. Yet if we find the lesson in these times, we can emerge stronger than ever. Do you have family around you? Are you able to find counseling? Looking forward to your response. I wish you well, Peace