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Title: Going crazy Post by: witsend65 on October 10, 2020, 04:16:04 PM Hello. I have a 26 year old daughter with BPD and I feel like I am going crazy. I am blamed for EVERYTHING! No matter what I do, it doesn't seem to be right. I have been strangled, severely beaten, she has cleaned out my bank account, totally trashed my house and I am still hanging in there. She has had a major attempt at killing herself. Driving her car down the M1 at 220km trying to bounce it off the barriers to roll it and kill herself. This week she came to me and said she was scared she was going to have another go at it. I took her to the Hospital and she was put in respite care and is now in emergency housing...till she moves into a new flat. Sadly theres a 2 day gap and she wants to come and stay with me. I dread this. I said maybe I should pay for somewhere for those 2 days. Then she cries and said's I don't love her, why don't I even like her. To be honest I want to walk away from her. I feel like I am loosing my mind. I've stopped telling my few friends I have. There in disbelief I put up with this. As I am. I feel like a monster as lately I wonder if she would be better off not in this life. She has no friends, no one to support her and she burns the bridges with everyone. She has made me her everything. Is this normal? Thankfully with being in respite care there will be some counselling coming her way. She has a major dope addiction. I feel she is going to screw up this new place she is moving into and will expect to move back in with me. I've just ordered the walking on eggshells book. I am desperate!
Title: Re: Going crazy Post by: Rev on October 11, 2020, 06:25:44 AM Hello. I have a 26 year old daughter with BPD and I feel like I am going crazy. I am blamed for EVERYTHING! No matter what I do, it doesn't seem to be right. I have been strangled, severely beaten, she has cleaned out my bank account, totally trashed my house and I am still hanging in there. She has had a major attempt at killing herself. Driving her car down the M1 at 220km trying to bounce it off the barriers to roll it and kill herself. This week she came to me and said she was scared she was going to have another go at it. I took her to the Hospital and she was put in respite care and is now in emergency housing...till she moves into a new flat. Sadly theres a 2 day gap and she wants to come and stay with me. I dread this. I said maybe I should pay for somewhere for those 2 days. Then she cries and said's I don't love her, why don't I even like her. To be honest I want to walk away from her. I feel like I am loosing my mind. I've stopped telling my few friends I have. There in disbelief I put up with this. As I am. I feel like a monster as lately I wonder if she would be better off not in this life. She has no friends, no one to support her and she burns the bridges with everyone. She has made me her everything. Is this normal? Thankfully with being in respite care there will be some counselling coming her way. She has a major dope addiction. I feel she is going to screw up this new place she is moving into and will expect to move back in with me. I've just ordered the walking on eggshells book. I am desperate! Hello there... My daughter has a mood disorder of some kind - won't give me the diagnosis although her mother and I suspect that she is bi-polar. This is soo hard (at least for me). I'm not sure what else to tell you because I am not really an expert. I would seriously suggest you get some professional coaching - I am - and it helps somewhat. Boundaries are the only way - and if she is moving in with you, that will be a challenge. That's why coaching is the way to go, at least from my POV. Good luck. Be kind to yourself as best as possible. Hugs Rev |