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Title: Overcoming fear of reprisal. Post by: heycowman on August 22, 2021, 07:56:18 PM I am married and have lived in and out of the house for five years. I was just their two months and left.
My spouse is OK with me leaving as long as I update with conversations and keep the connection going daily. We have been married thirty years, have two children and most of what we do revolves around family. I had a theapist years ago state I need to leave the home. ONe of the reasons behind this was to convince my spouse she had something wrong with her. It did not work. Two days ago I messaged her saying this was not working. She replied stating how much she does and how I blindsided her. Well.. that is true so I continued communicating today. It sound like a good idea, I live in constant fear of her raging anger. this is completely unpredictable but she has done a great job of controlling it. My current therapist says My fears are unfounded and that just because she has an outburst of little things I should be able to let it go. Not to let it bother me. BUt it does bother me. I have had multiple issues with racing heartbeats where twice I have had to have EKG tests. I also Have had sleeping heart beats as high as 160bpm. Often my family, spouse and even therapists have said I am doing this to myself. I should add. All the indications that my spouse has BPD are present. Does it seem my mental health is so bad where I stand on my own ? or is it this marriage? Any response is appreciated. Title: Re: Overcoming fear of reprisal. Post by: Cat Familiar on August 23, 2021, 02:18:21 PM Do you feel better when you are away from her?
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