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So this is an update. We took everything apart, and there is a "package"..
I'm like "Mom whats this ?".. Shes like "I don't know". (It was wrapped in a plastic bag". I take out a knife and rip it open.. It was the "money I supposedly took".. I'm like "Mom whats this".. Shes like "thats not the package".

This is when I exploded. :caution: I said "Mom what the #%^#^$ is this? the money you accused me of stealing"... Shes like "thats not the package they were two"... Then shes like "Oh theres only one". I said there is One or Two packages. She wont say..

In the interim, my friend came down from Ohio to see me. She paid for everything. I told her not to since I didnt have the funds. She dont know how to manage money. She got hosed when she took us for a "couples massage" . they demanded a 50% tip ($50.00).. Then she didnt pay for her fee for some nursing thing, I had to shell out money for that, she didnt get the stuff notarized, and her parking fee.. I didnt sleep well. So I come home, and I get "I had money in envelopes and its gone".. "I had money there since 2010 and the money is gone". She rattles...

So for 11 yrs, I go and seek money shes saying...UGH!... I cant even have a relaxing weekend or time away, I got to come back to this...

Dear Legal, it is hard! Definitely not good for your healing to have to deal with this. Is there any way  you can organize home health care for your mom or you? You are right, you need a break.
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:hug: she chases away anyone from any medical agencies. Says she can handle her own. I cant Im at my wits end...I hide in my room

Dear LB, sounds like a tough situation! What do you do for your mother? Is there something you can do less of? As long as she knows she can rely on you to take care of her, she has no motivation to change. Time to shift the balance from her to your self care.
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I dont know what self care is anymore...

Dear LB, please breathe for a second! There there. It is hard for you  right now. Now tell yourself firmly to put your own oxygen mask first. If you cant look after yourself, pretty soon you will be no good to anybody. So please tell all the crazy people in your life to give you a moment, you are busy. And then take five minutes to figure what you need and how to fill your own cup. Come now. You have walked such a long road with us. You have come too far to give up now.
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I know but you know what.. let the unstable (cant use those other words) fend for themselves. They got means to start their own fires.. let them put them out. Im not the fire department

That's the spirit! You got this LB!  :hug: :hug:

Did you read my latest

LB, you're doing fine   :wee:Take care of yourself first, yes.Believe that you deserve better, and you will do better.  :hug: :hug:

I never put myself first.. lol. Can pizza give you PTSD? I cant eat dominos pizza without getting violently sick :(