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Hello Everyone,

I am going through a breakup from a BPD ex since August.  There had been no contact since then until last Friday when she texted me she "missed me.  And never appreciated me like she should have."

I didn't reply.  But then two days ago she reached out again asking if she could come over to get her stuff and drop off old key.  I gave in and asked what time?  The dialogue continued with her asking if she could spend the night and I said yes.  Her:  this will be so fun!  Can we watch movie together?

Then she texted back out of nowhere that she didn't feel good and was going home.  And I haven't heard from her since. 

My best guess is that she likely was fighting with whoever my replacement is.  I don't know for sure that she replaced me but I think that is a good assumption.

Anyway, I am hurting.  I have been reading and watching all sorts of videos on BPD.  I am realizing that nearly all my significant relationships where I really had strong feelings were likely with BPDs.

I just feel so broken and lost.  I don't know what I need to do next.  Feel like I am going insane. 

I've been talking with a therapist and that seems to be making things worse.  Please help.

Well Taylor, first on behalf of the family here we welcome you. :hi: You have already taken some good steps. You are talking to a therapist and you are here. Those are big steps. I know you are saying that your therapist is making things worse, but perhaps your therapist is striking some nerves. In order to heal some sensitive topics will get covered. Your buttons will be pushed, but not to hurt, but to bring out the junk that you have trapped inside. Stick with therapy because it will pay off in the long run. Believe in that and believe in yourself!

You are going to be ok and you are going to get through this. Also, be kind to yourself. Take it easy.

What I am not going to do is focus on your relationships. We are going to focus on you. Please continue to post and hey just vent. Talk things out. This family is here to listen. We will have your back. This is a great community to be a part of.

Cheers and best wishes!

-SC-

I agree, focus on your self and avoid the perils of overthinking. She may or may not have a 'replacement', she. May or may not have had a difficult emotional moment and backed out at the last moment. She may or may not be testing your feelings for her.

With that squared away, your depressed {not going insane} and id like to ask, did this contact make you feel better or worse compared to how you were doing with no contact?

Best,