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My ex would slowly start withdrawing from me.  I could see his eyes get dull.  Over a few weeks he would quit talking or looking at me.  This could last for years.  He was able to work.  He saw friends less.  Did anyone else experience this?  I would beg him to talk to me but nothing.  Eventually he would come out of it and act as if all was fine

Mine was just like that.  It broke my heart. Every time it would happen - the shutting down - almost dissolving. His eyes would dissociate too.   It was why I couldn’t take it anymore.  He did it to everyone who loved him.  His family, friends, ex-partners.  I could never figure out what triggered it in him.  Sometimes I wanted desperately to figure it out so I could make sure if it was something I did I could stop it from happening.  It killed me inside.  And he’d come back, like nothing happened (for a while).  But then over time, the recycling would get less and less - breadcrumbs.  Made me feel worthless and used.  So gross.

I reached my breaking point and just couldn’t do it anymore.  Some days I still reel from it all.  Still heartbroken and I can feel it sometimes.

I get it.  Believe me I do.  Thanks for sharing about it here. 

Thanks so much.  Helps to know it wasn’t us.