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I wish I had more time for people, but I don't. I have to focus on myself a lot right now. But I will say that I hope you all heal. I wanted to touch on a topic that means a lot to me. So, back when I had my Buddhist phase, some things that never sat right with me were that Buddhism tells you to give up music, and sex (two things that bring people together more than about anything), because they are sensual pleasures and to become a fully enlightened monk, because they are addictive, but I think that's foolish, anything can be addictive, if anyone knows me, I was addicted to my pets. And although I think Buddhism has influenced me a lot (and has probably contributed more to mental health than any religion), I think the one dimensionalness of it, kind of made it something that would never work for me. My life experience has made me very independent minded, and I stand by it, I can't be a follower, I can humble myself, but I can't dedicate myself to someone else's way of life.

So, anyways, back to music. One of my favorite bands is The Beatles, you're probably never going to find a band like them. They had it all, intelligence, heart, passion, popularity, good looks, and they really threw themselves into it. There's controversy about John Lennon treating women poorly (and his son), that might off put people, but since he was honest about it and working on it, and this was a long time ago, I forgive him. John Lennon had very deep insights and an intelligence that was pretty impressive, and he was also heavily influenced by blues and soul I think, which by the way, are two things I loved from back then, because black people just have a way with music that has always impressed me, I don't know if it's all just cultural, or also because of ancestry, but it's impressive to me. One of the saddest songs I've ever heard was Nina Simone - Wild is the Wind, and I use it as inspiration for vibrato on my guitar for sad music, because her sorrowful vibrato is unmatched in my book.

Anyways, The Beatles, they have so much wisdom and heart, McCartney had a lot of heart. Some of my favorite songs are Let It Be, All You Need Is Love, Blackbird, Across the Universe, Hey Jude, Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da, Here Comes The Sun, Nobody Loves You (When You're Down and Out), and probably more I can't remember.

But back to my initial point, is that music is healing, because there's so many messages, and sounds that will sink into you and affect you. It can help you through about anything, because there's always a song that can put you in a different mood, or that can help you indulge a mood, or you can just flip through songs you like and go on a wild ride.

You don't have to like what I like, although I think if you miss out on The Beatles, in my book that's a mistake. But I strongly support and encourage you to find some music to get you through this. I know it's very hard to get abused, it's very hard for me too, even though I am strong, it's a struggle, and I know it's a struggle for you all too. They say music is the bridge between heaven and earth, and I kind of believe that, even though I'm kind of sketchy on the Heaven part! I hope this message helps you all. Good luck in your healing journeys.

I couldn't listen to music in the first couple weeks being in the FOG. One of the first songs that snapped me out momentarily was Nina Simone doing a live "Feelings." I was like wait, I have those! I remember my best friend and I used to listen to "Hey Bulldog" when we were kids. This was the last song The Beatles recorded before leaving for a retreat in India to study meditation with the Maharishi and really has no meaning but was good to bring me back to good times. Miles Davis really gets me through the dark periods. He gets it, that's for sure. Man led a hard life and some of it is so disorganized yet so clean. You can feel his pain and his joy and his heroin high lol. For my workouts I got Tool back on my active roster and haven't switched in months. They are all about evolving to a higher plane of consciousness and existence through really experiencing your illusion of pain. Then I saw my first concert in over a year. My favorite Jam band Umphrey's Mcgee. They are just outstanding musicians, some of the best out there right now, and a lot of their music is about attachments and relationships. The other thing was it was the first time back to my ex's hometown and I felt like I was taking my life back going there. Thanks for bringing this up and letting me share :).