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I am struggling to keep things going right now with friends who have more “normal” lives. I think maybe I am in too many group texts, but I don’t want to hear about activities like putting up xmas trees right now… anyone else feeling this way lately?

This is a recurring feeling for me with my dx 26 daughter. I felt like this off and on for years. I remember getting really upset at a co-worker years ago (but didn't tell him or show it - just felt it) for selling his daughter's girl scout cookies at work, because, it was just such a normal everyday thing......and what I was experiencing with my daughter at that time would have caused most parents' hair to stand up on end!

I didn't get to see my granddaughter this Thanksgiving (due to daughter's issues) and really have a difficult time seeing my FB friends with pics of their grands at Thanksgiving dinner. But I just try and focus on what is good in my life and hold onto that.

Yup,
Filled with dread going into town ,all the Christmas decorations in shops, I wish I could go to sleep and wake up in the 2nd of January. It’s too much!

Yes, I can very much relate.  I am really trying to move on with my life, and enjoy time with people whom I can have healthy two-sided relationships with.  I’ve been so focused on my daughter since her issues surfaced in her teens (she is now 33) that I literally have a 20 year gap of my life lost it feels like. I had girlfriends that I used to meet up with for dinners, movies, mani/pedis etc. but I got tired of hearing myself vent about my daughter and I just stopped seeing them.  I didn’t want to burden people with all the chaos and drama that was my life. My Facebook account got hacked a few months and it was actually a Godsend in the end.  Not only did my daughter use it for emotional punishment (passive aggressive posts, unfriending me on and off), it was depressing to see how “normal” all my daughter’s friends turned out to be. Even some of them I thought had dysfunctional families and were doomed turned out successful and healthy while my daughter, despite all the help she’s had, is not. Not that I’m not happy for others, I just found it could change my mood because it was a reminder. I am trying to focus on all the things I have to be grateful for, and it does help.  But I will be forever heartbroken that I can’t be close to my daughter like we once were, many moons ago :(

I remember those feelings well and it doesn't seem fair, we're all stressed out while others are preparing for a Merry Christmas with their family.  And we can't talk about our kid because nobody would begin to understand it, so we keep things to ourselves and just pout when nobody's looking.  It stinks.

I personally don't do group texts/FB groups unless absolutely necessary, but I've always found that stuff annoying anyway.