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Title: AAaaaand... It's back Post by: pikar on January 04, 2013, 11:32:39 PM Hi,
After a difficult pass, I encouraged my Fiancée to stop everything, get some time for her and consider to be helped. She quit her ~ty job, started a group therapy and life smiled at us: she got pregnant and she had been accepted to a school program she loved, but where she had been refused the year before. I witnessed her BPD symptoms getting lighter and lighter, no more self mutilations, no more suicidal thoughts, fewer crisis that never went as far as before and that stopped rapidly (1 to 2 hours, compared to 4 to 8 hours before). In the end her group didn't help much more, her pregnancy became more exhausting and her mental health was a lot better so facing these facts she decided to stop therapy. She delivered a beautiful girl and 2 month later she started school, hopefully for the last time this time. But BPD is back on the track... . Between taking care of our daughter and working real hard for her studies she has less time for herself and is tired from all this effort. Came the oral exams, she just can't be "judged" in front of other people, especially when asked to act a scenario. And emotions sneakily came back, even though she is brilliant at school, this wall makes her feel she will never succeed. Lately she had bigger crisis, suicidal thoughts again, itching desire of mutilation... . I hoped her BPD was on its way to go. |