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Title: Re: SUCCESS STORIES Post by: Siiiiiigh27 on November 12, 2013, 06:40:16 PM I was looking for resources about BPD i landed here smiley
Here's my story... .I'm in grad school for Mental Health Counseling. My fiance and I had been fighting, seemed like non-stop. I've always known that he has pent up issues that he hadn't dealt with, I felt that they were the root of his insecurities, the reason he smokes so much, and so on. The arguments kept escalating... .got to a point where he punched a hole through the wall and THAT was my limit. I've always been very supportive and always tried to understand where he was coming from. After he started becoming violent and destructive I told him that if he didn't get counseling that we were done. I love and adore him, and I feel i'm a strong person but i'm not made of steel. He had been diagnosed with BPD months ago and he was seeing a therapist. Things were going well! He was journaling and whenever his mood changed, rather than grab a cigarette or pick a fight, he would write. I felt we were getting somewhere. He got a new job three months ago and his therapist doesn't take the insurance. So now I feel like we're going backwards. Things were going okay, but he hasnt kept up with his journal, and last night was another outburst. I find myself losing my patience and lashing out and just being nasty in these arguments- no boundaries. Ive gotten to a point where I lost all consideration of his feelings and I feel this is dangerous... .to just NOT CARE how he feels. In the moment i think ' he doesnt give two ___s how hes affecting me why should i?' Anyway, reading through some posts really made me feel better... .like i'm not the only one who's tried to "help" or tried to "fix" things. |