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Title: still here and still writing Post by: rollercoaster24 on September 22, 2014, 05:07:18 AM Hey everyone
I've been burning up these boards lately, after a spell for some time, but not going to beat myself up about it since it isn't surprising. 2 contacts from exBP ,(over the 6 months we have been broken up) set me back a lot, (should have hung up or just not talked with him) 1 pathetic attempt to get over that idea that I would not be able to be intimate with anyone else ever, (that I would never experience that kind of love and attraction again). Did this by allowing a friend to talk me into 'friends with benefits', and it was a complete failure (ignored the ) and only made me feel worse. The realisation that I have been missing female company, and all things female (too much time spent around/over BP only) Too much work and no breaks/weekends off/holidays over the last year, (now beginning to address that) Not attempting to fix everyone else's problems, and then disappointing them anyway, (but wishing they would stop coming to me for help!) Neglecting my own health, (not enough sleep, overeating, not exercising enough, smoking too much, going to the dentist finally). 'Cleaning house', (offloading things that I don't really need any longer) and lightening the load at the same time. Beginning to address my own issues, (anxiety namely), having just ordered a Dialectical Therapy book for Anxiety. Finding a creative interest, and doing a little of that each day, (want to learn to play the guitar) Planning a holiday from work, and a friend that will accompany me if I go overseas. That is it for now, but could probably add more. Thanks for letting me share Roller |