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I'ma relatively healthy male in my 40's, and have been dating a younger women with BPD on and off (go figure) for about 2 yrs. I do have High Blood Pressure which is usually controlled but this relationship is literally Killing Me! We stayed and lived together for a full year and one day she simply told me she was bored. She completely disconnected from me and made me feel so ignored and unwanted I moved out. She completely ignored all forms of communication with me, so I walked away and went into NC. I was devastated. I feel into a deep depression, stopped taking care of myself as well as taking my meds for my HBP. One day while standing on the porch I became very light head, saw nothing but red before me and I passed out. I ended up gashing my forehead pretty badly and still have that scar. Out of the blue, 3 months later she calls me asking to meet. I agreed. We were like two teenagers and had wild, passionate sex. We were on again. This lasted 4 months. One day after helping her out all day doing and running errands I was installing a refrigeration unit at her place and I had to run to the store. I was frustrated that I ended up going to several stores to finally find the part I needed. I walked into the house in a bad mood. She asked what was wrong and I shrugged it off. Once I installed the window unit she says to me that she can tell I No Longer want to be w/her and that I should leave and Never come back? Once again, bottom dropped and I fell into bummer mode for several months, lost almost 20 lbs and ended up in the hospital.

3 months after nothing, she re-appears. Yes of course... duh... I fell for it again. This time, I asked for better communication. She agreed. 3 months go by and she tells me she doesnt love me anymore? This time I became very angry and wanted to talk it out. She called the cops. Even though I was on my HBP meds I became so upset that I had a TIA(transient ischemic attack) warning stroke. Now my left hand, pinky and ring finger are numb. So that's it! I cant/wont do this Anymore... I'm Done and though I Love her to ":)eath" it's just not worth my life and soul. If there's anyone that is going through Round 1, save yourself and walk away.

Oh dear dagwoodbowser, sorry to hear what you have been through. I hope you can get your physical health under control.

I am mid 40's, younger BPDgf, round 2 (I left her the first time), 2.5 years in.

Dude... JohnLove. I soo much pray and wish I would have found a site like this even 6 months ago. If you are on here and you see it all so clear... the same stories, the same unhappy endings. It's wicked tough to leave these types, but if they dont get you arrested on false charges, destroy your finances or home, they will maim and harm your Soul...