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Title: Hurting Post by: N065548 on June 28, 2015, 10:00:56 PM My BPD girlfriend and I just ended our relationship for what seems like the thousandth time. I'm in a great deal of pain as the blame is being placed completely on me. Every day when I attempt to discuss how I'm feeling, it gets over ruled with anger and blame. I'm drowning in the decision that's left here with me. She is a good person. And I know she loves me. Though she objects always I care so deeply for her and want to see her happy. I've lost every part of myself and no longer know where to turn. Of course I have made mistakes... but I feel like she wants me to believe I deserve this. Do I deserve this?
Title: Re: Hurting Post by: vortex of confusion on June 28, 2015, 10:07:26 PM I am so sorry that you are dealing with this right now. The on again off again stuff is so confusing and hurtful. Are you hoping that she comes back again? One of the things that you can do is read through the lessons that you can find down the right side of this forum. It might give you some understanding of her behaviors as well as your own. This stuff is so confusing. Title: Re: Hurting Post by: N065548 on June 28, 2015, 10:43:19 PM I don't know what I'm hoping. I'm so exhausted it's difficult for me to know which way is the right way. I've invested so much of myself into this it's hard to let go. But I can't help but believe if I love her I will let her go... I'll look through the resources. Thank you!
Title: Re: Hurting Post by: Daniell85 on June 28, 2015, 11:37:00 PM It's ok to take a pause for a bit and not make any decisions about anything. Just rest and calm and sort your mind and feelings. Sorry you had another break up. It is really gut wrenching.
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