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Maybe I'm guilty of micro amazing. If I am, I feel I was pushed into that corner. I've been paying support for 8 1/2 years. She left when my son was 6mo old. I fought for every scrap of time I get with s9. She knows I'm a man of good morals. But always viewed me as a nothing, I work very hard, took pride in being a provider, although she had a good job. It's a built in primitave man thing to feel good about being a good provider. People would stop us on the road when we would go for walks and tell us how good our house and property look. I was at it steady, clearing and burning brush, keeping the hay cut, getting things in shape. It made me feel good to hear those nice words. S9's mother couldn't wait to make rude ignorant comments to me when ever someone said something about the old farm. So jump ahead to present, it's the 7th of July, I'm 7 days late with my support payment. I'm always late, it's nothing new. But I've never missed a payment. My arrears are goose egg. But every once and a while she has to make an ignorant comment, like she just did. Never a word about all the extra I gave over the years. The last year since she met her BF, she's been, if it's possible, extra ignorant. Maybe she took an on line course or something. I don't respond, she knows it rubs me the wrong way, a cheep shot to make me feel like a dead beat, plus I've had s9 since Wednesday until this Sunday, summer arrangement. The more I heal from her insidiousness the worse she gets. Funny, being treated like a dog for wanting to be a good father, being treated like a dog for being a good husband. Last year she didn't cash 3 months worth of cheques, she didn't say a thing. I caught it one night 3 weeks before Xmas, while going over my bank statement. I had to fork out some serious dough before Xmas. I don't know what she was up to there but killed her when I dropped off a money order for the full amount at her lawyers office. All I got was an ignorant remark.