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Title: These comments make me hate myself Post by: Garth on January 18, 2017, 04:58:46 PM Reading these comments makes me hate myself more than ever. I don't mean to stress out and hurt those around me. I don't want to be the way I am. I try so ___ing hard to be normal and happy and just calm down but I fail. I don't mean to make my boyfriend's life hell, as some of you said. I don't even know if I have BPD but I act the way these people describe and when I do I just lose control... .I'm not a monster. At least, I don't mean to be. I don't become suicidal and dramatic because I want attention. I become suicidal and dramatic because I perpetually hurt those I love, thus continuing the cycle. I wish I was never born, so I wouldn't be such a burden.
Title: Re: These comments make me hate myself Post by: livednlearned on January 19, 2017, 10:55:36 AM Hi Garth,
Changing behavior is hard! It takes a lot of courage and strength to make changes. This site is for family members of BPD sufferers and posts may be triggering. You might find Resources for BPD Sufferers (https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/Themes/default/welcome3.html) more helpful. Don't give up. It can get better :) LnL |