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I break up with my boyfriend 2 weeks ago. We were together only 3 months but it felt like I new him my hole life. But the level of stress and agony combined with moments of total surrender and feeling that he made me complete keep me in fog all the time.
Now I m fighting with my self feeling like a part of me missing, feeling lonely and incomplete. No one of my friends understand me, and that make feeling of lonleness worse. On the other hand, my ex trying to communicate with me all the time, even though I change my phone numbers, deactivate facebook ect... .Every time he finds way to get to me (he phoned me on my phone at work) it made my feel worse. I feel guilt, and some good memories start to wake up.
I find this page and it helped me knowing that I m not alone and even though I have issues on my own there s nothing wrong with me feeling this way .
Sorry for me English , I m not from country where English is main language.

*welcome*

I'm sorry that you are going through all of this. You correct, you are not alone and what you describe that you're feeling is fairly common. I know that probably doesn't offer a great deal of comfort, but hopefully it does give some.

Are you wanting to work on saving the relationship with him, or are you trying to move on in your life without him?

Hi Atina, 

*welcome*

I'd like to join Meili and welcome you to bpdfamily. I can relate with how difficult it is to get family and friends to understand your perspective, sometimes it felt I was having two conversations, I would tell them what happened and explain it to them differently hoping that they'd get it. That being said, it's similar to divorce, it's hard for someone to empathize with you when they haven't gone through the experience to understand how painful it is. You have a whole forum with people that are in a r/s with a pwBPD, have a family member with BPD or have an ex life myself with BPD, we've walked a mile in your shoes, it helps to talk.