Title: I've lost all sense of time Post by: hopealways on March 21, 2017, 05:28:13 PM 5 years since I met my BPDx, 1.5 years since she left me (again) and I have lost all sense of time.
Everything time wise I gauge in relation to where I was before I met her, when I met her, and the time of our relationship. It's so annoying. I think back to 5 years ago and it seems like an eternity. I cannot even believe where time has gone. It is mostly because instead of moving on with my life and enjoying my days, I used to just wait until nightfall because it would bring me one day closer to a recycle. It's so sad. But it has made me realize the depth of my trauma which existed WAY before I met her. Her entrance and exits into my life just made me realize that I needed to get help. Which I have. The work and struggle is constant and daily. Sometimes I wonder had I never met her what would have happened? I would have probably met someone far worse, we would have had a kid together, which meant one more innocent being introduced into the horrible world of the borderline. Now I see red flags in everyone I meet. Sometimes I wish I never knew about BPD. But it seems it has reached epidemic proportions. Through all this I still remain optimistic that there are untortured souls out there and as I heal, I will naturally find them. Title: Re: I've lost all sense of time Post by: infjEpic on March 22, 2017, 09:02:33 PM For what it's worth, the time thing applies to any relationship.
Knowledge is power with BPD. It's better to know. Have you created a new life for yourself? Title: Re: I've lost all sense of time Post by: hopealways on March 22, 2017, 09:13:42 PM For what it's worth, the time thing applies to any relationship. Yes I have. And no for my past non-BPD relationships I never related anything as far as time is concerned to the relationship.Knowledge is power with BPD. It's better to know. Have you created a new life for yourself? |