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Last Thursday I told my mom no more holidays with them and she's not contact3d me since. Is this the silent treatment or now she's done with me? I always have to initiate contact but am sick of that. Chasing her making sure she's ok when she could give two ___s how I am.

I can't read what you wrote. It seems to have cut it off.  I see, "She should give two _____ how I am." and it ends

My mom does the same thing.  She cuts me off because she feels slighted, and doesn't tell me why. If I call her, she won't even come to the phone. I'm given a lecture by my dad about how I should know better.  I'm a middle-aged, married woman. It's crazy.  And like you, I have to initiate contact as well, or I never hear from her.

Have you read about BPD? Do you know about it?  This website has great resources.  I'm sorry you are hurting. Why did you decide not more holidays together? 

It was a swear word removed  that's why it cut out  oops. I was a flying monkey for my mom to my brother then he said something really rude to me so I told him off. He's selfish at times but usually nice but since then we don't talk. My sis and I fought after her mental illness took it's toll on my family. I asked her to save the delusional talk for her therapist because she was diagnosed and on meds by now and she phased me out cut me off because I didn't want to hear it any more because it wasn't true, none of it. I felt so used then discarded after all our years of friendship as well as being sister's. I told her off and told her where to go. Told her I was disappointed that she felt we couldn't go back to before her psychosis and just be friends again instead of me saving her.

So I'm done having my holidays ruined for the sake of family. I haven't enjoyed a holiday since because it's awkward. I only get so many years before my kids are grown and ready to share holidays with their significant others so I decided I'm going to enjoy them stress free from here on out. I wasted 5 years of crap holidays on them, not any more.