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So, on the phone, she tells me her new boyfriend, who she met a week after we broke up... .Gets scared she'll cheat on him with someone else. And they play with a French guy in the chat room, they go on, and he told her she should go with him, because he lives closer to her... .(She's in Scotland, He's in France, Her boyfriend is in America). She told me all this over the phone, How she had to reassure him she will NEVER cheat. Or leave him for anyone. Yet was on the phone to me, telling me about how she's kept memories of us haha. Anyway, Is she cheating on him? Did she cheat on me? Near the end, she used to go off because she felt "sick" or was watching a movie, Was that just an excuse so she could have cam sex with other guys/Girls? She's got extreme anxiety, Never leaves the house, and suspects she has diabties. I miss her and I would take her back in a heartbeat, but I'm unsure.

Hi Tonetta,

How often are you two conversing?  I can see from your posts that you are in a really hard place emotionally.  Have you considered stepping back a little from things to assess the bigger picture and consider what steps you wish to take to approach this?  It can be so difficult to think things through when you are overwhelmed with feelings which remain heightened as we continue to expose ourselves to the drama.  I maintained LC for a few weeks following my split and it was the times in between contact that I began to realise how much a relief it was to get a little head space and work things through.  Every time we spoke it was like picking at the wound.

You seem conflicted about your trust in her and what she has potentially been doing in the past.  It also sounds like she is trying to make you jealous by talking about all the interest she is getting from other men and the concerns her current bf has around her fidelity.  It's possible that she is trying to provoke a response from you and gauge whether you wish to step up and fight for her.  I'd suggest a little time and space apart to think through how it would make you feel to be a part of that world where she may continue to have others fighting for her also.
 Would you be able to put the past behind you and move forwards with an open mind and heart Tonetta?

Love and light x 

I don't think she wants me to fight for her, considering I'm blocked on every social media thing she has. She's game playing with me and him, It's not right. She denied ever saying anything to me, the next day. Either she regretted it, or got what she wanted. I don't know.