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Title: Need help Post by: Chant on May 17, 2020, 07:47:49 AM I can't believe how comforting 'Stop Walking on Eggshells' has been to me. I had started to believe many of the nasty and incorrect accusations!
I have been diagnosed with acute amyloid leukemia. My caregiver I believe has BPD. Because of the isolation caused by my immune system and Covid 19, things have been getting worse and worse. I was becoming depressed. He has been angry with me for weeks as I get chemotherapy and try to recover. He "inadvertently" read my Cancer Journal where I recorded a horrible argument where he forced me to write that "I needed him" or he would not drive me to the hospital for treatments and he was going to quit as my caregiver. I will be admitted to hospital for 4 to 6 weeks in June and must have a caregiver when I return home for at least 2 months. Yesterday he threatened to call the police...no law has been broken...he just wants to punish me with threats. He threatened to call my cancer team at the hospital and have my bone marrow transplant cancelled until I have a full psychological assessment. I don't want to involve my family and cause more worry for them. My caregiver has lived with me off and on for about 20 years. Most of that time he has been unable to work so I have provided food and shelter. We were once in a romantic relationship but the last time he moved back in to my house about 8 years ago, I said we had to maintain a friendship relationship due to huge debt that he has that I am unwilling to take responsibility for. Caregiving now when I need it to save my life and the increased anger from my caregiver is affecting my well being as i try to recover from cancer. |