Angry & in need of Encouragement

[KHC_33]

I have had 3 major heart surgeries. I suffering almost 7 years of not taking care of myself. On top of the past with carrying for my high priority mother with BPD.

Since June my health has declined (when I left). I am so angry. I maybe facing another surgery and be put on meds for life.

How is that he can email me and say his health has been 100% restored... .I am here suffering like this and yet I left such a horrible situation? Now that I am alone I can finally mentally, emotionally and physically rest (but I don't want to!)

I can't even fathom it.

I was able to ignore, phase out, live on adrenaline for years (not feeling what my heart was doing) remove myself out of my own body emotionally. Now it checks me in the bed (something so small as doing groceries!)

Not happy!

Could use some encouragement  

[ShadowDancer]