hey camel and welcome to the family.
im sorry youre going through this. twenty years is a very long time
that was a really great move on your part, getting your kids into therapy. thats going to go a long way in terms of a neutral party helping them understand the situation, and learning skills to cope. are you also seeing a therapist?
i recommend you check out the lessons on both leaving and staying boards since you have a coparenting relationship:
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=136462.0https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=56206.0you may want to check out the coparenting board:
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?board=9.0as well as bpdfamily suggested reading. there are several you may find useful:
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=56280.0and keep posting and checking out the board. youve come to the right place and we are here to help