So yes BPD's do cheat, all of them. I was sad for a few minutes then I realized all the things I learned here.
I am lucky she left me. She did me a huge favor. I will have a happy life, she will not.
I am starting to believe I am lucky she left me. It helps a whole lot thinking that way. She even knew it was for my best interest too.
My coworker and I were talking about the guy i think she is sleeping with yesterday about him calling in. Apparently, his wife is going out of town for vacation or something and then my coworker said "Maybe, he is going to have his side girl over while she is gone." She was just joking, so then I told her "I bet it's my ex." and she says, "She wouldn't go that low." And I gave her a knowing look like she would. She told me I am just overthinking it, but idk. Then I said "He knows her name." And she gave me a look like, "That's true." And my head is spinning out of control.
I'm hoping she just called in because it was snowing. I just keep wondering all the things she does differently now. If she is calling in for some guy it makes me sick because she never would have done that for me.
She wanted me to switch my schedule around so that I had Saturdays off to be with her. The moment I had Saturdays off she decided to go into work more often. So idk what to think if she is calling in for someone. Makes me feel pretty crappy. Makes me wonder how much other stuff she is doing for people that she would never do for me.