It still hurts here and there.

[The Cat in d Hat]

She initiated NC over 60 days now. It was a great milestone, as I now have a hard time even remembering how she looks.  

I was drinking over the weekend at some point I wanted to see her social media. Ordinarily I just resist the urge, keeping up strict NC myself as well. I couldn’t get past her main page; luckily the alcohol had me so out of it I couldn’t even log in .

Today I was closing 100s of open tabs in my browser to clean up, and saw the first ever song she sent me, “Like a God’’. A song I just HAD to listen to she said. I of course did not, just briefly the first few seconds, since it was an up and coming not so known artist, and I honestly didn’t care for it and I told her that too.

I did listen to some of it today, and just picked up on some lines like “When you tore my heart, you tore that sh** apart” and “You’ll want me back”.

Seems like she had plenty of emotional baggage before I even started talking to her. Or it was just a warning . Either way it brought up some discomfort today, just wanted to write out as it felt better doing so.  

[randomuser94]

Glad to hear from you. It looks like you are doing more than fine.
  Almost 3 months since she broke up with me, but I've started NC recently(full NC for a week; until then we exchanged some messages like once every 3 days). Before I met her i had no problem spending time alone since I'm introvert, but now when i'm not surrounded by friends(or i'm generally alone) she crawls back into my mind. Sometimes it;s easy to get her out by just remembering one of the many things she did to me, but there are times where it's almost impossible to remove her from my head. Overall I'm doing fine but I hate it when this happens...