Hey everyone. Here is background on the situation:
-I met this girl and always had a crush on her. She is gorgeous and started off being so empathic.
Back in July, her and her ex I think broke up. And she tried commiting suicide.
Me and her hung out once, then second time we hung out at the park and saw the sunrise. She held my hand cuz I was cold. She asked if I was interested in her and I said yes but I know she just got out of a relationship. She agreed and said she wants to be friends first and get to know each other.
I dropped her off and she messaging me a lot and making sure I made it home and upset I didn’t text her I made it home. We text a lot, and I accepted my role as friends even though I had feelings and asked her to hang out because she said she had no friends but out of state. And how’s she alone. I tried being a good friend and we really vibe but she was busy. Then the following week she told me about her ex coming to her house and he flew from out of state.
I assumed they were working it out so I backed off but she said no he showed up out of nowhere and she was uncomfortable.
I picked her up later and took her to the city to get her mind off stuff. On the way back I held her hand and we flirted a lot and bantering.
Her ex was still at her house so she had to leave and kick him out. She brought up sex and talked about fwb and told me how none of her exes choked her right. I choked her in the car a little to be sexual and she said “ not now” but harder
I thought she liked it. A week later she brought it up telling me one of her exes used to always choke her randomly and she’s traumatized. I apologized. Later that night she wanted to come back over and drink but then said she’s tired and I respected it.
Then that night she told me how I’m so perfect but waiting for my red flags to show. I told her I’m just going slow and trynna get to know her and play the long game. She told me I’m too nice it’s suspicious. I told her I get angry when I’m hungry or sleepy though?
She told me how she’s not ready for a relationship and can’t reciprocate and has always been in a relationship and wants to be single and focus on herself and grow. I told her I respect that and her decision to be single. She told me how it would be selfish of her to ask me to wait for her.
We text a lot like everyday. And felt like we getting closer. we talk on the phone two days in a row and talk til sunrise getting to know another and talking about love languages and all that.
Then she goes mia. A bit and distant. I noticed she’s too busy to see me and hanging out with other guys a lot. And this one guys place with other guys. I acted unbothered cuz we not together and I can’t be mad. She started posting on social media about all these guys messaging her trying to get at her. I found it annoying.
I decided to distance myself and left her alone for a day.
The following day she messaged me and tells me to visit her at work. I told her I’m busy and don’t want to look too available. And we end up making plans for Saturday. She picks me up and takes me out and I’m surprised about the effort she’s giving now. She ends up sleeping over and we drank.
She got drunk and I helped her to the bathroom and back. I slept with my pants on and offered her food and clothes. I could have had sex but I didn’t want to try anything because I like her and actually want future and build trust.
She fell asleep with her head on my chest and I stroked her hair. We woke up cuddling. And then dry humped and kissed. She kissed me back and put her tongue in my mouth. She wanted to have sex but was stopping herself and I respected it. She told me about fwb because she can’t catch feelings right now because she might have to move and is afraid this might stop her. She told me im the most empathic guy ever and loves that about me and I told her let’s not label things and see where it goes.
We promised on it. She goes home and then texts me let’s just be platonic and she doesn’t want to catch feelings but will consider the fwb. She told me she might push me away because her feelings are overwhelming and this was moving fast.
Then she’s busy again, and we don’t see each other. Then a week later we get into a little argument because she tells me she doesn’t want to go to the beach and it’s romantic. And she told me we can’t be fwb because I have feelings. And I told her I thought you were catching feelings too?
She tells me she never liked me or had feelings and that she did that because I was catching feelings and tried pushing me away. I was shocked and felt like my reality was distorted.
I post a pic online with two girl classmates then she posts something petty.
We text and she asks me everyday if I have feelings and I said I don’t so I can move on.
Then Friday she tells me to visit her at work and bring a hoodie. I told her I was busy atm and she says “it’s ok I can ask someone else” and I said you didn’t let me finish I’ll come after
She told me she’s not comfortable coming over anymore and how she doesn’t wanna drink anymore just us two. I told her all we did was sleep and she drooled on me. She brings up this guy im not cool with and how she drools on his pillows and I’m like wth? You said you guys were not close. She said they are now.
I visit her at work and she talks about sex and shows me some of her photoshoot pics. She mentioned how her hair is longer now and I mentioned something sexual and I wanted to do with her when she slept over.
She tells me she can’t be fwb anymore and how she asked the other guy and he said no cuz he’ll catch feelings and she said she caught feelings for him cuz he rejected her and he’s opposite of me and such An asshole and cold.
She told me they did more stuff sexual and gave details and it broke my heart. I told her I need space and I had feelings then she says “I knew you feelings”
I leave and she messaged me. I left her on read. Then the next day she messages me two long paragraphs. And then accusing me of making her uncomfortable and touching her. And I apologized but I didn’t intend and was confused. We talk and we had a mature talk and said we just friends.
We agree we need space. A day goes by and she messaged me. I hung out with my friends and they went to high school with her and they all told me she’s a hoe and just acting like that to manipulate me. She never liked me and she’s talking to other guys right now.
I started talking to her sexual on Instagram and she never said stop but enticed me and went with it.
A day goes by and I found out she messaged my friends ex which is her ex and I got fed up. I asked for my stuff back and Was just cold with her. She posted about cutting toxic people off on her Twitter. I got my stuff and got her a drink she likes. Got my stuff and left and then I find out she gave me someone’s else’s sweat pants.
I told her thank you for helping me lose feelings. And she got mad and said I’m toxic. And blew up on me.
I left her alone and she says “were you only nice to me to get with me” and I said no care about her genuinely and she told me how I disrespect her and a mental stain on her and I’m toxic.
I told her I understand if she doesn’t want me in her life. But I care about her . The next day she blocks me and I felt bad and explained myself on Snapchat and she replied right away and we go back and forth then she still accusing me and she never liked me and I’m in denial and she never lead me on and how I’m giving her mixed signals. And I was shook because she has been giving me mixed signals and when I stop feeding into her she upset.
After her constantly accusing me of things and saying I make her uNcomfortable and I’m a creep. I went off on her and told her to stop victimizing herself. And ive been honest with her and tried being a good friend and put my feelings aside and respected the friendship and anytime she flirted I thought she liked me and gave me hopes.
She ends up calling me and we talk 4 hours and she explained herself and then we agreed to be platonic Friends and get to know another. And everything has been a misunderstanding.
We text the next day and today I woke up again to being blocked and she’s posting online about cutting toxic people out.
I have strong feelings for her and this push pull has me messed up. She told me she liked guys that are cold and caught feelings for that guy. Now that I’m
Cold and don’t give a
PLEASE READ she’s sad and upset.
My friends tell me she’s manipulative and just using me because I’m a good guy. But with me she acts so genuine and empathic but all of a sudden victimizing her and mad I kissed her when she kissed me back.
I think she’s finding any reason to push me away and I know I did some bad things but She never expressed it bothering her.
In bed she told me she’s gonna push me away but I didn’t think like this.
She had feelings then she never did and then said I’m in denial and she’s getting over some guy.
I’m blocked and she thinks I’m toxic and idk what to do now. She pushed me away.by playing all these games and push pull and when I had enough and called her out I’m toxic and a mental Strain on her.
Why call me and talk til sunrise and agree to be platonic then block me again?