I have pictures of my ex-husband (BP) when he is dissociating while standing next to me. You can actually see on his face that he is just not mentally there. I cannot imagine what the stressful part of the situation was since we were spending the 4th of July at an amusement park with my family.
I also remember passing him in the hall of our home when I swear he did not realize I was there.
I do not have BPD, but I dissociate a lot.
Its kind of funny, because when I was taking psychology classes and read about dissocation, I never realized that I did it. It wasn't until I had my kids that I realize just how much I space out. There are a few books in our kids library that I have read several times, but I couldn't tell you the plot. I have watched entire movies that I haven't seen. Often, I will realize that my kids have been talking to me and I didn't realize it, and just last week, I walked by my son at his school, totally not realizing that he was there.
Its totally involuntary. I never realize that I am going into it. I only realize it when it is time to come out of it. It can frustrate my husband very much..
Its my comfort place. I want to go there.
I have noticed that I tend to go there when there is a lot of stimulation. An amusement park could certainly provide that.