Why do you think stopping communicating with her is a "co-dependent route"?
I was reading up on codependency and how NOT to end a co-dependent relationship - the route of NC out of fear, anger, or other negative emotions was considered a co-dependent ending rather than a healthy one. That said, my therapist has recommended NC without explanation simply because of the tendency for my BPDexgf to trigger my PTSD. I can't say I disagree.
First of all... .who told you the therapist said that she couldn't be helped? Her or the therapist?
The BPDexgf told me. Her psychiatrist diagnosed her and then said she was too high functioning to get medication or DBT through the NHS. Apparently they reserve their treatments for the lower functioning cases, which I can understand... .but I find it appalling they can know she has an actual personality disorder and expect her to fend for herself. That said, if she wants help there are plenty of ways she can get it even if it won't be handed to her on a silver platter.
]What keeps you hanging on? Presumably you get something out of it. What is it? Perhaps you could start by going LC (limited contact)?
What keeps me hanging on? The slight hope, which has been fading for a while, that we can become healthier people and be able to have a healthy friendship. I think I've arrived at understanding she and I can probably never have a meaningful healthy friendship - no matter how healthy we become as individuals.
It's just always going to be too easy for us to be a train wreck, I think. As much as I hate to have to do it, I think I'm going to have no choice but to go permanent NC.
I think it's childish and immature to just cut someone off - it's not like it's
all their fault. Heck, I'm not sure any of it really their
fault - they didn't choose to have their disorder anymore than we chose how our own wounds manifested. Cutting them out of our lives without ending it peacefully just because we can't handle them isn't "fair" in my book.
Every relationship I've had was always left with a mutual friendliness. I don't keep in active contact with most of them, but there's always the option for them to ring me or me them and to pop out for dinner together if we're in the same area. I would much prefer to do that with this one, too, but I do not think I can... .it's just way too difficult to deal with the BPD behaviors for me at this point.
I have a lot of healing to do from my own wounds before I can even think of doing that, and I imagine by the time I can do it I really won't want to anymore. It's hard enough dealing with my BPD parent right now - I don't think I need more than one untreated BPD person in my life.