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Title: blocked emotions Post by: letmeout on May 07, 2014, 12:37:14 AM My counselor brought up something interesting at our session today. I was telling her how thoughts of my BPDexh keep randomly popping into my head, and how remembering the things he did has been seriously pissing me off.
I repressed a lot of emotions to survive that marriage, and the counselor said it is about time I really get good and mad over the abuse I took! She said it is necessary to remember and feel those emotions; they will serve me well when I start dating to never to allow that type of behavior in my life again. I wonder if anyone else still has these same issues a few years being out of a r/s with a BPD person or am I just slow at recovering? Title: Re: blocked emotions Post by: trappedinlove on May 07, 2014, 06:41:30 AM I wonder if anyone else still has these same issues a few years being out of a r/s with a BPD person or am I just slow at recovering? I'm not a few years out yet but I definitely have an anger problem, i.e., lack of thereof :) In my case this probably goes farther back to earlier issues with my late-ex-wife and my dBPDtraits daughter where I learned to control my anger to be able to stay sane, and well I did an overly good job at it :) I guess I feel a lot of guilt around that, but hack, I feel no anger, just love, even though I was hurt in a very painful way and I do feel used in the sense that the r/s circled around my uBPDxso needs and I was there to support her in the worst of times and she made a huge leap forward in her personal growth and just skipped forward in her life with no gratitude and zero empathy to my pain. I must admit though that I wasn't abused to the level others are reporting here. I guess that if I were I would be much angrier, even furious. |