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Well, another birthday has arrived. I'm spending time with some friends tonight to celebrate & had a meal with the family yesterday. I suppose I should be grateful for that.

I'm not expecting to hear from her. Funny how she's the only one I want a message from.

Happy birthday!

Sorry to hear you're thinking about her,  don't even know if my ex knows my birth date.

Honestly, I think it's better if you don't hear from her.  It would likely stir up excess emotions and put you in position to respond.

Hey happy birthday buddy!

Not being in it w an pwBPD is a gift man, and so is having had a relationship w a pwBPD and learning from it.  She's given you all she can at her point in her life.

I read this really cool thing by Mother Theresa where she said something like 'you learn to be humble by being humiliated.'  And some people are really gifted teachers of humility broseph.

Dear Eric

I'm so sorry that she is not there with you today. I know how much you want to hear from her more than anyone else.

You know what, you gotta be super kind and super easy on yourself today.

Maybe write to her in a journal. Tell her how much you wanted her to be with you today. Tell her how much you love and miss her. Tell her about the memories, the future you had pictured for the two of you together. Let the tears drop, let the feelings out.

Then give yourself a big birthday cuddle and tell yourself how much you love "you"!   

There are bright days ahead Eric. You might not be able to see it now. But I assure you that there will be. It's just very difficult to believe it now. As difficult as this change is, one day you are going to look back and be thankful for it.

Life is very short. Everyone deserves to live a happy healthy life.

Happy Birthday Dear Eric  

I had a glimmer of hope that she would remember & send me a message.

But, she didn't care about me when we were together. Why would she when we are apart?

She's moved on, I'm old news... .Another ___, miserable birthday.

Happy Birthday Eric!

This bday is going to be hard whether she calls or not - honestly.  Keep in mind, this is going to be the hardest - you will be ok and next year will not look like this 

Happy Birthday Eric. I recalled you mentioned a while ago your special day was approaching. Like Caramel said, I too know how you were feeling just hoping for recognition from her on your birthday.  I cant imagine hurting someone the way they do let alone on a persons birthday. 

My exBPD ruined my bday when we were together with a push pull devaluation of me for no reason, then when I exoressed my anger, the grand finale  was a suicide manipulation which made my bday full of heartache and  tears... and... .about him. Not me. Thats how I celebrated my day.  And guess what else... .Not even a card.  Not even " happy birthday" written on a napkin.  I wont address all the ways I made his day special for him out of genuine love.  Lets just say, the scales most certainly do not equal.

This year I was abandoned a few mos prior to my bday.  It was a significant bday and so many friends, acquaintances, family and even peripheral ppl in my life made an effort to share a sentiment.  My expBPD knew how much simple things mean to me. How much holidays and birthdays mean in the simplest warmest ways.  Like you , I expected human decency as such.  With all the ways we can communicate w out even being present, I thought a simple Happy Birthday would come through.  Like you, it was the one gift I wsnted just to show me that I mattered to him.  That he remembered me. That some small part of he who took all of my kind caring loving heart might take just one moment to acknowledge me.  Nothing.  At all. Not even a happy birthday sent thru a friend.

Whats ironic is we spoke so often of how much bdays meant to us. Mirroring I guess looking back.   I gave him the bdays he never had and always wanted. I remembered his favorite meal, dessert, even went to great length to get him a gift that was not easy to obtain but held great sentimental value.  The kind of gift you would never think anyone would take the effort to get for you bc it showed deep thought more than anything else. And that I listened when he spoke from his heart of what mattered.  The cards I wrote to him.  Those in itself were gifts from the heart.  The kind of things I would and do cherish more than material goods. He told me over and over how much he did too.

He later told me on a one day recycle that he had remembered my day. I asked thru tears saying how very much I had wanted to hear from him on that day. Recalling how we spent his bday.  He knew.  He showed no shame as we spoke.  Almost a bit of satisfaction instead. 

I later learned he had thrown away the cards I wrote to him.  Like he threw me away for no reason.

Happy birthday Eric! Please don't place your value in the hands of anyone else.  You are a gift and celebrate that everyday as you continue to heal and you continue to a much healthier place ahead

Funny, it was my birthday the 30th of July, and the only person I wanted to hear from was her too. Of course I didn't.

I then recalled what a ___show my last birthday was with her, and how the entire evening became about her, and what I was doing WRONG yadda yadda yadda.

Happy Birthday.

Happy Birthday Eric1 and Blindjoe.

I'm sorry neither of you heard from your gfs, it is hard when we are looking for signs of love and care and they don't happen.

Sadly the probability is that had they been in touch what you wanted would not be what they had to offer. Most BPDs seem to be triggered by birthdays. I know my bf has made my last 3 birthdays very difficult. The first we had booked a walking holiday with friends and he pulled out two days before with a very lame excuse. My second birthday with him he chose to reveal something very unpleasant about his past. This birthday was a really important one and he spent a month deciding if he wanted to do something nice with me or not (in fact only finally let me know the day before).

One of my friends suggested that I self-care instead as I wasn't going to get what I needed emotionally from him. Why not buy yourself a nice gift or go and do something special for yourself rather than rely on someone else to give you that.

Last June was my 2nd Birthday since my exBPDgf and i parted  ( on her instigation)

On both of those Birthdays i have recieved silent hang up calls on my office telephone. This year as well as the silent hang up call, my secretary took a call from a woman who stated she had dialed the wrong number.

My gut instinct tells me that it was her on both birthdays.