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We have had a horrible week and continues to be on the outs. Christimas was full of tension and passive aggressive behavior. She is still accusing me of cheating last weekend and demands that she has too be my center of attention when we go in public. The other issue is that since we have been fighting so much things are not happening in our bedroom. She tells me the reason that she feel so insecrue is because we aren't close sexually. To tell you the truth with  all the fighting and belittling that is the last thing I want. All of my friends keep saying to leave and even with all the pain and threats and mean behavior its still hard to leave. Why do we do that? Why do we take all of this when we know it not good for us. I'm said broken and depressed almost mad at myself for staying through this all. Stress to the max!

Sorry that you are going through a high tention period.   The holidays have a way of bringing all that tension to the surface,



In what way does she want to be the center of your attention? 



You are not alone.  Many of us here can relate to this.   



I don't know, but with each passing day I feel more and more like a damn fool for sticking around. 

BP's have a problem with trust. They also feel a lot of pain inside.

She will think that if you really loved her you would not have been out last weekend, or where ever you were. She may not even realize this. Just a feeling.

Try to read all the articles on this forum that will help you understand what is going on with them

First and formost is to stop the arguing. This is hard to practice.

As explained in some articles, you don't thro gasoline on a fire.

I feel your pain.