I'm here now because this is where i need to be. I can not believe (yes i can i am here) how OBSESSIONAL and neurologically trapped i have gotten in this situation. I tell my self next week will be different, tomorrow will be different... and find myself locked in.
well above posts and workshop will be helpful. I need to remember to put my efforts here first! And get on with my day, my life...
Rather be a host to God, than a hostage to my ego. Damn, that damage got me but good. Okay, it is what it is. You got to heal. Let go man!
Its funny to think that the past and future are objects/stories the mind plays with. "Oh how they treated us, oh how potentially happy they may be in the future without us."
What I find most confusing is what part of this is to be taken as a lesson and how much of it is just food for the ego? Is there really anything to be learned or are these ruminations just mind fuel?