This may be a good time to try to minimize chances of running into her, rereading any of those old email and waxing nostalgic on the good times, or finding ways to stay connected to her in sideways fashion. It's obviously hurting you... . Heavy heart and all. There will be the chance to run into her later, to sort through the artifacts she's left behind... . just right now it hurts. Be kind to yourself.
Yeah... . I know the next time I'll definitely see her will be in May for a mutual event. I should be over her by then... . Likely, running in the same circles, we will run into each other before then in about 3 weeks (there is a lot going on in town, but I can see us showing up to the same places.)
Hey have you thought about seeing a doctor for the depression? It may help to talk to him about medicine or other things you can do to take the edge off a bit.
I was on xanax at the end of the relationship when she started laying the silent treatment on. Luckily I have a friend who is a PA who could write me the prescription but I ran out. Overall, I don't like to use anti-depressants. I like to think there is a lesson to learn in here, and I realize it might take me to a dark place. For some, the pills might work, but I prefer to do it my own way (at my own peril).
Anyhow, no insurance. But I am seeing a therapist.
About the first two weeks after it was all over for me I felt pretty good... . I could sleep again, the stress wasn't there, but then the grief and the processing of everything started and that pretty much was horrible for a good three months, then it started to get better slowly.
I'm at one month since the last time I talked with her. The relationship was only 4 with the last month being pretty non-involved/ distant.