After reading these horror stories the past few days I realize I'm not alone. My story sounds like those on here. The thought that hit me like a ton of bricks is simple. WHY?
Why do I/we put up with such horrible things? In my case I realized that I don't really know my BPD. We don't share the normal things a healthy couple share. We don't do much of anything as a couple we just kind of exist under the same roof. We don't show one another love as a healthy couple would.I rarely see any good from this relationship. It has been an uphill battle from the start scratching and clawing for any resemblance of a loving RS. I am of the opinion that if I stayed I would ultimately be surrendering my life to her to do with it as she please. I have dozens of reasons why I left. I can only think of a few reasons to have stayed. Thanks for taking time to read this post. I hope it made some sense.
In bold.
For me... .
Lack of self love.
Had i loved myself enough... .
I would have not let her... .
Reenter my life in round 2.
Lack of self love... .
Also kept me in the relationship... .
Allowing horrible emotional abuse... .
Until she left again.
Had i loved myself properly... .
I would have walked away.
Hang in there.
