Hi TD131!
I am so sorry to hear about all the hardships you have been through and still are going through. Growing up with a mother suffering from BPD is tough, especially not knowing what's wrong with her... .
I am glad for you though that she has finally received ad diagnose, since that will at least for you be a starting point to begin to make some sense of it all and a possibility to address all the things you have been carrying on your shoulders during your life... .I am also glad to see you have found your way here, and that you are reaching out!
This is a good place to hang around when going through what you are going through. And here you will find first of all that you are not alone in your experiences and you will be able to get to know other members who are struggling with the same things!
Explore the boards here and feel free to start your own threads with questions or thoughts or whatever is on your mind, and also engage in the ongoing threads.
We also offer a lot of good and useful information about the disorder and also have workshops and articles to read about how to learn smart communication tools that can help making communication with your mother become more constructive and less triggering for her, with less pain for you... .
We are here for you and we want to be of help, so pleas let us know how we best can be of support for you at this time!
Just to get you started I will give you a link to a couple of articles on growing up with a parent suffering from BPD that may be useful for you in perhaps recognizing some of the things you have experienced and give you a sense of not being alone in going through this... .
How a Mother with Borderline Personality Disorder Affects Her ChildrenHow to Forgive an Abusive ParentLet us know if you find the material helpful or if you are looking for additional or different material.
And again, we are glad that you want to join us! There is a lot to be gained from learning more and above all, there is hope in beginning your own healing process and knowing things can get better for you!
Best Wishes
Scout99