Memory is an important word in my life.

[nevermore]

Memory is an important word in my life. My father lost his mind and every memory as he died from Alzheimer's disease.  My mother is a borderline and she has the "ability" to rewrite history (mine, her's, my father's etc.)  A few days ago I read that the government is looking into a way of erasing the unpleasant memories so that people who have been through a trauma such as war or drug abusers (their words, not mine) can simply have the bad memories wiped away with a drug.

My feeling is this... .I have a ton of memories of being abused as a kid, losing my brother to suicide, dealing with the B.S. of a BPD mother but I prefer to deal with those memories head on and trying to put them into files and only pull out happy thoughts or having my mind scrubbed clean simply is not something that works for me.

The Garth Brooks song "The Dance" says it all. I would have missed the pain, but I would have missed the dance."  I'll take the bad with the good and build my path through it. I think trying to turn my brain into a file cabinet of happy thoughts is simply denying my own reality.  That is just my 5 cents.