I keep reading the threads about how partners with BPD traits flit from one person to the next without any regard for the non. As I read those threads and how it felt, I could really relate to the feelings. The only problem is that I felt like I didn't have any right to feel that way because "at least he wasn't cheating".
It is like he replaces me with things instead of people because he is that incapable of intimacy and getting close to people.
I partially relate to that Vortex as not all pwBPD cheat, like not all non's
But being replaced before with things, yes
After the outbursts took place every 3-5 months and me still unaware of Borderline, exw started to socialize more.
Back then, just out of concern, I warned her not to volunteer in too many activities, as exw couldn’t handle all the follow up anymore.
Later, after being aware of, I realized that my company was avoided, being replaced by activities.
Once I counted her appointments on the family calendar.
There were 180 entries…,
so 50% of a all days in a year(!) madam was gone or too busy for US.
Including many Friday- and Saturday evenings.
Previously I commented a post about assimilating hobbies.
In every village/town we once a year celebrate “Queensday” now “Kingsday”. Since kids were a 4yrs. old, we participated the festivities. Later, kids find their own joy with friends, exw became involved in organising the event. Exw absolutely didn’t care about having Q-time as a couple. So kids gone, exw gone, dad… at home.
Since exw left, exw was seen with other man (before this soother) elsewhere.
With every outburst (even inner outburst) something breaks (for us too), the sabotage, the demolition of the r/s is born.
Emotionally they start to detach long before we even have the slightest idea.