So ... .My questions are... .
1. How do I get him to communicate with me? Words alone don't help, because his words always change.
2. How do I go about making his state feel validated?
3. Do I give him space and let him come to me? Isolation is a big thing with BPD and I know it too well. I don't want him to feel like I don't care.
4. How do I help myself from struggling to have HIS validation? I am not all that mentally stable either and I have big reasons to believe I am uBPD.
5. How do I avoid starting another fight and stepping on toes? I'm trying to be mindful of triggers, but this withdrawn behavior is driving me crazy... .I miss him so much and I hate that I have been a big cause to why he feels like he can't talk to me anymore. How do I reverse this?
Lots of good questions.
1. You can't force him to communicate. He will continue to do whatever he is going to continue to do. This is a behavior that he uses. Often the more you chase after him to talk, the further he will run away.
2. This is another one of those can you make someone do something questions. You can't make him be validated, but you can listen to him in a way that lets him know that you are listening and compassionate about what he is saying. I like to ask validating questions, which is sounds like you have started trying to do. Our workshop on
validating others may help you find more ways to validate.
3. Everything I've ever read on withdraw is to give them space when they back away. Chasing after them can cause them to retreat more. I always say though that once they return from their push away behavior, you should have a conversation with them about it being unfair to you for them to just disappear.
4. It's hard to do, but finding your own activities, your own inner source of strength, and your own identity can help you start to separate yourself from him. Emotional detachment can go a long way. THis means keeping yourself emotionally balanced when he begins to dysregulate. YOu mentioned that you feel that you have issues with emotional stability at times too. We all do to some degree or another. DBT therapy helps not only pwBPD but can help for other emotional issues too. I use it for anxiety and stress.
5. You may not be able to not upset him. If you walk around trying to avoid fights all the time, then you end up walking on egg shells and that creates a whole other list of problems. The purpose in using the tools and skills from this site is so that you can change your own behavior, not to fix your partner, but so you can find ways of communicating that are healthy and empowering to you. Your pwBPD is going to get mad at some point. That's just a given. Fights happen in any relationship. It's how you handle the fights that can help determine how you come out of them.