It’s so difficult because it feels like she is always trying to debate and prove her life is a disaster. Is this the bpd? I’m not questioning the feelings- I think they’re real. But is there an element of attention-seeking?
With SD23 there is definitely both -- real feelings of despair and an element of severe need.
I attended a Family Connections course and remember the peer-facilitator saying he considered BPD a potentially fatal disease because the rate of suicide completion is ten times higher than the rest of the population. It must be a very very fine line between "this is real" and "I need someone to pay attention." We have to provide just the right amount of attention without feeding the disorder. It's tough.
When she debates that her life is a disaster, how do you use SET to respond? Maybe we can learn from you and each other about how we respond to suicidal ideation and catastrophic thinking.
On another note, I wonder if the completion of the course makes her feel anxious about doing well and she is purposefully looking for ways to regress. Feeling ill, being ill probably feels familiar and oddly comforting. If she completes the course and does well, she exposes herself to feelings she may not know how or want to process. What if she loses the support of people when she becomes healthy? It's not uncommon for people suffering from BPD to find it scary to get better.
She is also a new mom and I imagine she feels overwhelmed.
How did you respond when she was younger and expressed wanting to kill herself?