maybe he isn't the person i am meant to be with

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

Maybe this is just how I feel today. 6 years of all of these feelings. Devaluing myself. Wondering why I am so anxious, is something wrong with me? Yet only feeling this type of anxious attachment with my ex. Maybe I was mistaking that attachment for love. But now I am finally writing it. Maybe we aren't meant to be together. Maybe it wasn't my anxiety, maybe there was never anything I could have done, maybe the relationship was meant to fail for me to learn lessons. I don't know if there is anyone out there for me. I am scared about not knowing. I spent so much energy focusing on how I could fix everything and end up happy and living with the person I believed I had an irreplaceable connection with. Maybe the way he is behaving right now (and it isn't a kind way to treat someone) doesn't mean anything about my value as a person. Maybe I can be compassionate with myself about where I am.

Maybe hoping for a better future, doesn't imply a better future together, but a future where I feel peace.

[tina7868]

Maybe this is just how I feel today. 6 years of all of these feelings. Devaluing myself. Wondering why I am so anxious, is something wrong with me? Yet only feeling this type of anxious attachment with my ex. Maybe I was mistaking that attachment for love. But now I am finally writing it. Maybe we aren't meant to be together. Maybe it wasn't my anxiety, maybe there was never anything I could have done, maybe the relationship was meant to fail for me to learn lessons. I don't know if there is anyone out there for me. I am scared about not knowing. I spent so much energy focusing on how I could fix everything and end up happy and living with the person I believed I had an irreplaceable connection with. Maybe the way he is behaving right now (and it isn't a kind way to treat someone) doesn't mean anything about my value as a person. Maybe I can be compassionate with myself about where I am.

Maybe hoping for a better future, doesn't imply a better future together, but a future where I feel peace.

[Turkish]

Maybe the way he is behaving right now (and it isn't a kind way to treat someone) doesn't mean anything about my value as a person. Maybe I can be compassionate with myself about where I am.

Maybe hoping for a better future, doesn't imply a better future together, but a future where I feel peace.

I think you nailed it. I'd drop the "maybes."

You have value as a person apart from anyone else who explicitly or implicitly says otherwise. Additionally, you can give grace to yourself though I know that's hard. It's necessary and right.