Hi all,
One thing my uBPD husband does often is to "lecture" me. Typically this means he goes on a long (20-minute plus) monologue in which he is at great pains to explain to me something I've done wrong (in his view) and how it should be instead.
I find these lectures condescending, paternalistic, and infuriating. I also find myself freezing--walking on eggshells--because I sense that he could easily be triggered into a rage. So I try to calmly endure the lecture, but I don't like it.
Interestingly, while his other negative BPD traits--anger, dismissiveness, confusion, defensiveness, etc.--have been on display in various sessions in our two years of marriage counseling, the lecture has not. Nor have I come across this lecture trait in books about BPD.
Back in 2013, wishfulthinking wrote this in a post titled "My husband lectures me":
My uBPDh takes FOREVER to discuss something he deems as an issue or offensive. . . These corrections (in his mind, my mind calls them sermons) last at LEAST half an hour. . . NOW, I'm not talking rages, just when they are calm but still offended by your heartbeat or something.
and Chosen responded:
it's easier to realise that you're getting nowhere with any type of conversation when your H is raging . . . But with lectures it's much harder, and I have tried to walk away or something but that just launches another lecture . . .
What I do now is to have a very consistent response (in tone, wording, attitude). Say he says "You are using the wrong tone." You may not feel you are but JADEing doesn't help. What I may do is "Hmm. Maybe you're right. I will watch my tone when I speak." He is almost never satisfied with that, since he wants an apology from me. Then he will probe further. I will just repeat "Yes. I will watch my tone when I speak." when he brings it up again and again.
So this is helpful and I'm going to give it a try, but I'm still wondering: Do others experience the "lecture" from their BPD partner? (Or maybe this is more a narcissistic trait?) If yes, what helps you in this situation?
Many thanks.