well the good thing i wasn't talking about intimacy, i was talking purely about sex. i know my BPD was not intimate when it came to sex. she did not have that going for her. what i was talking about was the physical act of just sex.
Pinoypride18, this statement maybe says a lot more about you than her. And it may say something about understanding women in general.
Maybe the sex for sex was OK for you, but her lack of intimacy probably was an indication that she was slowly drifting away - that you two were not connecting.
Sex for sex. That's a choice. Maybe thats all you wanted. Maybe thats all it became. Just know that when a couple gets on that highway, people change lanes pretty easily.
Please i need your help, convince me it was a good thing we broke up. Give me reasons why it is her and not me. I hate trying to figure out why she is doing all this and can walk around acting like it is ok. I am depressed, and i hate myself. But i feel like i am losing who i am. I don't know what im doing or to move passed this.
This sounds like a lot of pain for a mere romp. Maybe it was more to you?
I know you hate trying to figure out why she left - but if you want to learn from this experience, you have to go on that journey. It's a tough and it can be painful.
If you don't do it, you will likely be here again.
