Hello, jeb
Reality and
qcarolr are very right with their insights, and I hope you have the chance to ponder them and also to check out the links they have mentioned:
Good News, Breakthroughs & TLCs (the Success Stories that Reality talked about); and
THE LESSONS and the
TOOLS link to the right-hand side of this page, mentioned by qcarolr. Under the
TOOLS heading there are 7 very important links for you to click on, to learn how to make things better with your daughter:
1. Listen with Empathy
2. Validate the Valid
3. Don't React, Respond with S.E.T.
4. Be Self-aware and of WiseMInd
5. Communicate Boundaries & Limits
6. Adopt a Problem Solving Model
7. Know Good vs Bad Triangulation
Another link that has helped me greatly with making things better with the BPD loved ones in my life is
Radical Acceptance for family members. I urge you to check out the links I've provided, and if you haven't already done so, to check out every single link to the right-hand side of this page. The reason is this: My younger (non-BPD son) is married to a beautiful woman who I believe is undiagnosed BPD. My relationship with her sounds very much like yours and
chooselove's, with your daughters.
In the past I've gone through every single one of the emotions and heartbreak that you women are going through now... . As the mother of two sons (my older, diagnosed BPD son, is the reason I found this site a year ago), I was horrified by the relationship I was having with my D-I-L, thinking it was terrible only because I didn't know how to deal with a daughter, and that this was going to be terrible for my whole life from now on. My story about that relationship can be found on this Workshop:
How do we become more empathetic to the pwBPD in our life?After learning the communications tools and techniques in the first links I gave above, and perfecting them with my BPD son (who lives at home), I was still struggling with my relationship with my D-I-L. Once I participated in the Empathy Workshop I linked to above, I turned around my whole way of dealing with my D-I-L, too, and things are
still better between us, many months later. In fact, a good example of the changes I made in myself regarding her happened just last week... .
There is a family issue happening with my Husband's family, where my D-I-L has very strong opinions as to how it should be handled (this is always the core of any problems she and I ever have; some family issue comes up and she pretty much demands that I handle it a certain way). When I received her email regarding this issue, the tone of her voice in the email, and my imagining of her wagging her finger at me to handle it in the way she was instructing me to, really pushed all of my "oldest child" buttons. I don't ever react very well to people "bossing" me around, especially when that person is not a peer or "superior".
The first thing I was inclined to do is email her back, telling her why she was being disrespectful in ordering me to obey her wishes, and to be angry with the email from her. But, I've learned that this would not be productive Instead, I left my laptop, went and worked out on the treadmill instead to cool down, and realized that this was the exact thing that has caused all of our problems in the past. I centered myself (used
WiseMind instead) and then sent a reply that basically said: "I appreciate your thoughts... . You may vent to me about this issue--I can understand your frustrations--but you need to remember that my Husband's family doesn't respect my opinions like my own family does, so I can only do my best... . Love, me"
And that was that; no blow-ups, no hurt feelings (I needed the treadmill to work out my
own hurt feelings as I reminded myself that this was just the way she is and that she probably had no
idea that she had pushed my buttons). And instead of a big ordeal (a year ago this would've caused my angry reaction to her email, her rages back that I don't respect her "professional opinions"--she has a MSW with a specialty in Early Childhood Development and somehow this entitles her to always tell me how to handle pretty much every situation that comes up that she wants to control ), the situation passed quickly and smoothly. And the added benefit? She and my non-son showed up to surprise us at Easter, with their toddler, my first and only grandchild
I promise you that my relationship with her has mirrored your own with your daughter, and the only thing that has caused peace in our family and in my life and heart, is learning everything I've linked to in this reply. No more silent treatments, No Contacts, angry rages and verbal attacks, etc. Please read that Workshop I linked to--it explains it better. I really hope this helps