hey jimmy99
im sorry to hear how confusing and painful all of this has been for you. my ex and i were about an hour apart, and she had great difficulty being separated from me as well.
Am I right to suspect that she has BPD? I looked at the signs and she meets most if not all of them. What's with the post-break up texting?
unfortunately none of us are professionals and we cant diagnose. what is clear from your story is that as you both say, she has abandonment issues, and it sounds like she suffers from chronic feelings of emptiness and being alone. that is simply something that, sadly, another person cannot heal, it comes from within. it can be difficult to relate to, and its sad to watch. my ex would call me and id usually already feel drained. shed tell me she missed me, and about how lonely she felt. id summon my best words to soothe her. they had no effect; they couldnt. i could sense that as we were hanging up she would be on the verge of tears. i felt helpless over it. and of course there were the rages that followed if i cancelled plans or wanted a night to myself.
and yes, a person with such great pain when it comes to being alone will look for something, or someone, to soothe that pain, especially a person fearing the abandonment of another. it is a very primitive coping mechanism, and its painful to be on the receiving end of . the fact that it happened is not your fault.