Hey rzr14
I'm sorry to hear about what has happened. I feel fortunate that she was giving me warning and did let me know about her disorder before this all happened. I'm detaching for now. I'm open to communicating. If she contacts me I just want to tell her that she can stop this pattern of hers with me. That I understand whats going on and that if she wants something with me in the future she knows what she must do for herself. I'm not blind to the situation and not blind to what her responds might be. I'm not sugarcoating anything. She broke up with me without anything really happening in our relationship. She just broke it off when thing between us was good. No fights... .nothing. She regretted trying to break up with me the first time that week. She knows she pushes people away. This doesn't count for much but the psychic said her and I had a lot deeper connection than her ex and she had. They gave me a 80% of her coming back in some shape or form but recommended to no contact her whatsoever. That she expects me to contact her and at some point will wonder whats going on. She is currently feeling engulfed from what I noticed when I had any form of communication with her. She runs away from commitment. With all this being said I feel I have a decent chance of hearing from her in the future since we had no issues in our relationship besides things that would come up due to what I now know is her BPD.
Again I'm not trying to make myself look like I'm perfect but really from the smear campaign and everything she said in the past I really haven't done anything. I have hope... .
Thanks Willis002 for the reply, I am still open to contact with my ex too. Me and her have each other blocked on facebook, but i don't have her blocked on my phone, it wouldn't do any good to block her I have a business and can't change my number. I have ties with her family now that I can't break at least for right now. My ex gave me warnings to in the beginning and every once in awhile. Basically saying I should go before she destroys me and she can't be fix. They will pull on or heart with what them say, she wasn't telling me to leave or to give me a warning. She knew I would do more for her if she played the victim of the disorder, it still hard for me to believe but seeing everyone on here saying that is what happen to them I'm starting to believe that for myself.
I told my ex too that the pattern of hers can stop with me, we can stop this and work on it together. She would be all for it, then you wake up one morning to the picture of her and me on the wall and the key to the apartment gone and you are painted black. Then the cycle starts again. Just be careful of the words she feeds you, they know you better then you know yourself. My ex told me that before, "I KNOW HOW OUR BRAIN WORKS" basically saying I have no offense or defense to a issue because she already knows how I'm going to act and how it will play out. And she is right! no one knows me better then her, not even family or friends knows the stuff she knows. So just be careful.
