There such contradictions

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One min they say they love you but not in that way. If I'm hanging around with his friends as his circle of friends and me have become close friends in the two years, esp with his best friend whose a guy not in that way (read past threads to get the load down on it) but exBPDbf said if he finds out we've been hanging it would betray him, it would completely destroy him and break his heart. But why would it bother him so much if we did? Same that I've joined a site his on his annoyed about it! Why? If he says he doesn't know how to love me or anybody anyway. He said he loved his ex, she was his first love, they were together for three years but he said there was something about her though he didn't like he didn't have that connection, he cant feel that connection and thats what his constantly looking for but hell never find it because of his BPD. He said he thinks of me but not in that way eh?