She even blamed me for the contact
I yelled at her about it to just stop the crap.
I can't tolerate it. Being bent into someone else narrative.
I don't like yelling. I am not scared of anger. I think anger is a normal emotion which should be expressed but in controlled way. Yelling at someone is not a controlled way. Therefore, I am out of control, and I know it.
She said you just lost your tolerance LOL yes you could say that.
Because I was super patient and controlled my frustration. Everyone know how hard that is.
Gezz I was good at it. I could take my frustration and turn it into something else.
"The Saint of the dissolution of frustration" should be given to me as a formal "title"
I just don't want to anymore. Plain and simple.
I am glad you said that about the new and improved. Reminded me we have been here before. It's my fault that she isn't able to keep up her new and improved self. At some point that will be the dialogue.
Can you set your schedule to give me a pep talk every Friday. That one was short but did the trick LOL
I have gone into no contact again. I left it in a good way. I don't like to leave her with something horrible.
The talk that I contacted her. I can just see that as her telling people I won't stop contacting her.
I do love her and have empathy.
But her version of so much is not realistic or true, and I am looking the worst for it.
That is only going to get worse. I can see it.
No contact.