I think there's a time that you'll just have to mourn, but I'd encourage you to not let that uncertainty scare you.
Hello Yoke,
The persona on the YouTube channel says all the time…
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You have to feel it to cure it "…
This means… you must process your feelings, don't bury them, don't run from them… let them hurt, you have to allow yourself to feel them… its going to hurt; yes, but after a while, it does abate some... with each passing hour, day .. week and month.
I am trying to distract myself with all kind of things but it wont help.. i am just ending cry every day. It hurts too much...please respond.
We have all been there, I am there right now… my wife of eight years, has been gone for almost eight months now… I can say to you, that as time passes, it still hurts, but the severity does dissipate some, and a little more with each passing day.
Work on yourself, use this time to learn... deconstruct what happened, but don't ruminate… understand why you were drawn, attracted to your partner… who are you yourself, where did you develop your ideas about love, and attachment… how has this manifested in your present life… circumstances?
It's hard work… but worth it… "self care"… hobbies, chores… entertain yourself… learn to be able to be by yourself, as well with others, family, friends… go out in public, get a coffee at the coffee shop, sit down, "people watch", go to a movie, go out to eat, treat yourself… volunteer at a soup kitchen… go to the beach, go to a museum… plan and go on a day trip to another town, see the historical sights, the local fare, notice and appreciate the architecture… go to a nature trail… exercise, walk run, swim, bike… go to a state park… go to the antique store(s)... the book store, library… go fishing… be around people, strike a conversation with a perfect stranger… these are very healing things to do.
What did you do for fun, before… what were your hobbies when you were a kid… go to a ball game… go test drive a new car : )
Hang in there Yoke!
Keep posting!
Red5