Hey Mm2mb, welcome to the group -- glad you found us. More support is always better when there's a pwBPD (person with BPD) in your life.
Am I tracking correctly that it's your BPD_D25, and NOT her twin, who is married and has husband/kids also living with you guys? Want to make sure I'm getting things straight.
Sounds like while there's agreement among family members that "things need to change" and "we can't all go on living together like this", there's disagreement and conflict about WHO needs to be the one to move out. Many think that BPD_D25 needs to; you are struggling with what that would entail.
she is having surgery in two weeks that will render her unable to have children. She doesn’t want them but at the same time it seems that this all went to the next level when she learned the surgery was happening.
OK, I must be not tracking... it is her twin sister who is married with the kids, then, and it's BPD_D25 who has no kids? But this surgery, which is coming up quickly, is taking some control away from her. Oof. People with BPD do NOT do well when they don't feel "in control". It's no wonder D25 is acting out and spewing all her feelings on you guys.
I don’t want to hurt my daughter and I don’t want to keep putting her abusive behaviors ahead of everyone else in the home.
That's the crux of it, isn't it? I think sometimes we either "get told" that if we put ourselves first, it "means" we are hurting others, or we have that internal belief: "I can't leave and take care of myself now, it's selfish and will have a negative impact on the kids... I have to suffer through this to take care of them".
One concept that gets a lot of airtime here is the whole airplane oxygen mask thing -- you have to put on your own oxygen mask first, before you will be able to help others put on theirs. If you don't take care of yourself first, then how can you care for others? I'm guessing that conceptually you agree with this... but maybe the hard part is in the "how do I do that"...?
She is set to start a DBT program in 3 weeks and agrees she needs help and skills. That is good but...she also seems to using her new diagnosis as a free pass to abuse us and make us the enemy... I just want this pain to end for her and the abuse to stop. The world is already crazy enough and family has been what has gotten us through the last year and a half but I don’t know how we are going to get through the next 3 weeks.
I'm with you -- good she accepts that she needs assistance. Is it a residential program?
And also with you -- not great that she's using this time before the program to "let it all out".
I hear you're concerned that if you "kick her out", she won't be able to bring her dogs, and will also feel unloved. We can talk about that more, for sure. Lots to unpack there.
Until then, can you and your H and the rest of the family go somewhere else for a long weekend? Local hotel? Cabin? That would let D25 have her dogs and be at the house, and the rest of you don't have to participate in receiving the abuse. That's sort of where I'd lean if I knew I just had to make it through a couple of weeks. Do whatever YOU need to do to survive until she launches in the program. Buy some time and space to decompress and put on your oxygen mask.
Let us know how things have been going;
kells76