Hi whatathing, mutt
I know im probably over analyzing it. The thing is that since discovering about BPD there have been so many lightbulb moments. There are also so many things that remain unanswered. Its sad but by understanding her more i can protect myself better. The hard thing is working out what is relevant.
Enlighten, its been almost 3 months now for me and I still have lightbulb moments. Its abuse. When people are faced with traumas, a lot of times they are repressed. Sometimes when your taken out of the environment, the reason its repressed is no longer there and it becomes clear. Im still remembering crap she said to me or did that I ignored(repressed) that pop up. All it does is confirm that Im better off without her. I almost married her. Jeez, what the hell was I thinking!